So This Is It

Throughout life I’ve often heard the phrase “success is when preparation meets opportunity”. Well, in 2020 I concluded that if you only think within the frame of career or financial success, then the meaning of that phrase is grossly limited. For me personally, it seems to be about successfully transitioning through an opportunity within myself, and this huge Corona pandemic shit is just a small catalyst. Yep, folks it's some wacky shit going on from my perspective! **cue circus music**

Someone asked me how this Corona thing has changed me. Well, it really hasn’t changed me because I think I mostly (at least try to) accept “change” as being the forever constant. Corona is just a brick on the road. Yeah, I know it seems so belittling for something that is changing the entire world right? I’ve found out that for some people it may be better to have their reality gently shattered into manageable bite sized chunks instead of it exploding in their face like a faulty airbag. Somewhere at some point, a decision was made for me to take the bite sized chunks route and I’m okay with that. Come to think of it, Corona has done something indirectly. With me being at home more, it has allowed me to have a bit more mental head space to ponder weird shit like the shit I’m talking about now. But I like weird shit. I don’t often think about the actual physical illness itself but instead I’m continuously searching for correlations between my thinking and the material world. I think there’s always a deeper meaning or what I consider as the ultimate truth. On a surface level, my experience is an interesting place to exist. It’s like I’m in an incubator and in this incubator I get to wake up every day and work on the things that I’m passionate about mixed with attempts to understand my own mortality. It’s odd to hear about death and violence more than ever but I’m sitting here in what I consider one of the greatest moments of my life. Sometimes I even ask myself, “am I dead and don’t know it?” I don’t think so but I am somehow able to observe two different worlds at the same time. One is a world of chaos, death and fear, and the other is a world filled with lovely people, sunny days and parking spots close to the entrance. I feel like a choice is being made about what I’m experiencing right now and I graciously accept these beautiful days without any complaints. My next question is how do I assist in waking up as many people as possible without infringing on their existence as a sovereign being? I’ll just play it by ear but right now, I’m about to play Borderlands 3 online.