Folks Just Be Talkin' And I Just Be Noddin'

Here's what.. I am a woman of my word as soon as I remember what it was that I said in the first place. I have come to the conclusion that I have selective memory, selective hearing and "use your outside voice or you're just going to get a smile and a nod from me" syndrome. I have mastered the art of "going dumb" the second that someone starts talking to me about a subject I don't care to process. There is literally a monkey in my brain with a pair of symbols that goes H.A.M the moment people start talking sports, politics, or "look at this" while shoving their phone in my face. I also do this weird thing where I agree with folks just to get them to stop talking. In the past two weeks I have agreed that Wingstop has the best chicken wings (I don't eat chicken), Trey Songz has great albums (really..where?) and I believe at one point I agreed that we should indeed build the wall (uhmmm.. that was crazy, even for me). I have always been told that I don't listen but the thing is... I've un listened for so long I literally do not know how to listen completely. I desperately want to be more attentive. I want to be able to listen and fully participate in a conversation without veering off and singing the Baby Shark do do do do do until the other person's lips stop moving. Maury.. Help.