Clap Back Chas

You never know who you really are until you go through your old emails and see how many "Let me tell you something" emails are sitting in your outbox waiting to expose the mess you once were. A good friend of mine once told me that one day i'll get to a point where the sport of going off on someone via email or text message would subside and I would realize how crazy I am.. the day is upon us folks.. I casually logged into my yahoo account (which I haven't used in years) in a desperate search to find a song I recorded 10 years ago. I clicked onto the outbox tab and BAM...there they were! Several malicious emails to various people going off about various things. Some of the messages pertained to business and some were just because. I literally ran my tongue across my two twin towers that I call front teeth in complete astonishment that nobody had knocked them out yet. How did I get away with being so mouthy for so long?? I mean.. In one of the emails I told someone that trying to play me is like "jumping out of a plane with no parachute, good luck with death" LOL.. What?? When I think about the hot head I once was and the woman I am now it really baffles me. I was the queen of clap back and now i'd much rather fall back and eat a sandwich or five. My journey really began last year when I rededicated my life to Christ and "got dipped" as I call it. The one request I asked of God was and still is to give me wisdom. I wanted to be better and most importantly, I wanted people to be able to see His grace through me. In order to accomplish this difficult task I knew I had to die to myself daily. Trust me.. The old Chas is still in there begging to get out at times. Sometimes I want to twist peoples heads off like sprite bottles but then i'm like naaaw.. How can they live to be even more stupid with no head?? Lol. In all honesty I am so glad that change is inevitable. It's way deeper than going through your old Facebook pictures and realizing that you were really ugly when you dyed your hair blonde *raises hand* It's about growth from the inside out. As embarrassing as it was to read those popcorn-worthy emails, I was glad that I wasn't that same temperamental basket case . So basically, If you knew me two years ago you don't know me now. Hell, if you knew me last week you don't know me now.. Actually by the time I hit publish on this post I'm pretty sure i'm going to be a new person.. I'm a Gemini..What can I say?! So my question is this, Who else out there has struggled with the spirit of clap-backness and do you still have all your teeth?